Back to the past.

I was just sitting there. Alone yet not alone. It's those moments where its just the father and you. The messenger delivers the message and you just stand there and be in awe of it. Each line mentioned has the potential to change your life. Each word spoken forth brings joy and peace to the soul.

As pastor was still preaching and sharing, a strange chill went down my spine. For that instance, I was brought back to the days of fun, laughter, joy, sadness, tears, heartbreaks and commitments. Honestly speaking, there ain't a link between pastor's message and that but somehow, it just happened.


The people around me were still "amen-ing" and rejoicing in the Lord, for His word endures forever. I was rejoicing too... I thought.

But no, that strange thought came down to my life.

And so I sat down, hands on my laps, head sunk like never before. I was in my own world.


A world of the past, or so they call. I remember the good ol` days of struggling with emotions, the daily issues of homework, the endless nagging of people who care, and the countless reprimanding for being so lazy.

Then I thought of the people. The people whom have belong to history. These people played an important role to where I am today. I don't think I would be where I am today, if there isn't all the shit and crap I've went through. Praise God.


When you think of people, there is surely a handful of them whom have made a huge impact in your life. For myself, there is one that surely change my lifestyle and character. The appearance of this person definitely portrayed to me the undeserving grace that each one of us believers are entitled to.

I would be there back then. To comfort, to talk, to spend time with, to laugh, to joke, to run around doing nothing, to wake up really early in the morning for school and stuff, to have dinner out in unique places, to always wanting to try something new. And of cos, the list goes on and on.


These moments are deemed precious. Its moments like these that actually make you smile again when you think back. Of cos, there are the heart breaking moments too. But those are the moments where you wish you could just bundle them all up in a bottle, throw them down the ocean, only to have them back at your feet again.

I can say that such moments are missed dearly. But life never waits for anybody. Changes will always be constant. God even said in the bible that trials and tribulations are THERE in earth. But He have overcome it. And if He overcame it, so can we!



And so before I left the auditorium, I whispered to god a message from my heart.

"Hello God. I really wonder how [] is doing. I know you've been taking care of [] , and I know [] is in good hands. But I thank you daddy, that one day, just one day, I would love to see [] again. To just thank [] for giving me one of the best moments of life. Amen."

Its random I know. Come to think of it, I've no idea why I said that too. I dont even know if I want to even meet up anymore!

But one thing's for sure, My God's faithful and that's all that matters. Amen.